I’m no crazy young EIC for any magazine or newspaper as the title might suggest, but we did create a little one-time-only magazine as a final project for a major elective. We were grouped into different teams, each tasked to create a magazine that was socio-economically relevant.
And that we did.
While everyone got to have five people to share their burden with, our team only had four people. I’m not entirely sure who said it, but it was because we were all pretty competent people that the professor deemed us capable of managing a whole magazine with just the four of us. We did manage it, with 2 days of me having stayed in school for the first time past midnight (that was not Cookout related). It was kind of scary because the computer lab is haunted, but I never felt anything out of the ordinary, so I guess I’m relatively unscathed from hauntings.
Before I forget and get carried away though, here’s the link to our output (which has a QR code that links to the PDF copy of our output; not the printed copy, of course):
Anyhow, back to what I was saying…
Aside from being scared of seeing some strange apparition, I was also extremely scared of failing my team. As I was the EIC, every single little detail that could go wrong or I may have overlooked will be completely my fault. This was a huge burden on my shoulders and it caused me great worry. On top of that, I was also writing and helping with the final layout. It was stressful, to say the least.
But somehow, I found it exhilarating.
I didn’t really think I could survive, but I did. We did. Our team did amazingly and was the first to receive a “nice” compliment from our very meticulous and detail-oriented professor. It was a great honour and something of which I am proud of for my team.
She liked the layout, the photos, and where we headed with our articles. Save for the missing captions on all of our photos, I can hazard a guess that we kind of did pretty alright in her eyes. But throughout this whole process, I felt like I did nothing. I mean, I was there for each step we took and I also managed the printing, alongside getting the PowerPoint and website ready (including QR codes and Flip Book needed), but because there was no “concrete” output I made that was all my own, I felt like a useless hack who just rode along.
Am I just really hard on myself? Do I have a heavy bout of impostor syndrome?
I did lead the team and was there all throughout the way as best as I could…
Well, maybe I’d manage well working for a magazine or newspaper if it were just to get articles by the deadlines. I could even do well helping out with the layout and the photos. But I might not be cut out to be an EIC, until I can prove myself worthy of such a title…
Still proud of my team for what we achieved though, no doubt about that.
Featured Image: That was NOT taken by me, but was the cover of our magazine.