A short stint as Editor-in-Chief

I’m no crazy young EIC for any magazine or newspaper as the title might suggest, but we did create a little one-time-only magazine as a final project for a major elective. We were grouped into different teams, each tasked to create a magazine that was socio-economically relevant.

And that we did.

While everyone got to have five people to share their burden with, our team only had four people. I’m not entirely sure who said it, but it was because we were all pretty competent people that the professor deemed us capable of managing a whole magazine with just the four of us. We did manage it, with 2 days of me having stayed in school for the first time past midnight (that was not Cookout related). It was kind of scary because the computer lab is haunted, but I never felt anything out of the ordinary, so I guess I’m relatively unscathed from hauntings.

Before I forget and get carried away though, here’s the link to our output (which has a QR code that links to the PDF copy of our output; not the printed copy, of course):


Anyhow, back to what I was saying…

Aside from being scared of seeing some strange apparition, I was also extremely scared of failing my team. As I was the EIC, every single little detail that could go wrong or I may have overlooked will be completely my fault. This was a huge burden on my shoulders and it caused me great worry. On top of that, I was also writing and helping with the final layout. It was stressful, to say the least.

But somehow, I found it exhilarating.

I didn’t really think I could survive, but I did. We did. Our team did amazingly and was the first to receive a “nice” compliment from our very meticulous and detail-oriented professor. It was a great honour and something of which I am proud of for my team.

She liked the layout, the photos, and where we headed with our articles. Save for the missing captions on all of our photos, I can hazard a guess that we kind of did pretty alright in her eyes. But throughout this whole process, I felt like I did nothing. I mean, I was there for each step we took and I also managed the printing, alongside getting the PowerPoint and website ready (including QR codes and Flip Book needed), but because there was no “concrete” output I made that was all my own, I felt like a useless hack who just rode along.

Am I just really hard on myself? Do I have a heavy bout of impostor syndrome?

I did lead the team and was there all throughout the way as best as I could…

Well, maybe I’d manage well working for a magazine or newspaper if it were just to get articles by the deadlines. I could even do well helping out with the layout and the photos. But I might not be cut out to be an EIC, until I can prove myself worthy of such a title…

Still proud of my team for what we achieved though, no doubt about that.


Featured Image: That was NOT taken by me, but was the cover of our magazine.


On the matter of debuts

In my honest opinion, debuts are an unnecessary extravagance and more a show of vanity than of practical use for anyone.

A debut, a.k.a a debutante ball, is held as a form of introducing young ladies from aristocratic/upper class families to “polite society” in the old days. Considering that the term “debut” dates back to mid 18th century France and that affluent families usually held these balls to announce their young lady is of marrying age (invited guests also come from money/power), I never did quite see why it’s such a big deal now except as a show of wealth.

Aside from a waste of money that could have been used to help those in need instead (or saved), it goes towards this…thing (that’s more Western in origin than anything, and more for the sake of establishing alliances between families in business/power).

Those often than not one-time use expensive gowns, the hoarde of food, the fancy-looking cake, and whatever else is there at these things seems more a support towards capitalism than anything else in my eyes.

Are debuts still really necessary?

Anyhow, I’m not a girl from an aristocratic family that needs to be married off to the highest bidder, nor does our family have extra money to splurge, so I never saw value in debuts. I’m also more oriented towards practical matters, like saving for any rainy day in the future.

TL;DR: There’s just too much poverty around us for debuts to even factor in. There may be a standard that was set long ago on what debuts should be like and many examples that exist even today on how extravagant they must be, but why ride along on this bandwagon?

Note: The writer of this little rant is averse to celebrating her own birthday (and often forgets her own age when asked for it — she staunchly believes that age is just a number and that what matters is how old one feels inside) and was against having a debut (her parents happily obliged with her wish) due to her views that they seem vain and more a waste of money than anything.

These are just my thoughts from a post ABS-CBN made some weeks ago:

Why not try making your own original story first with a good plot based on ACTUAL Philippine folklore that’s been researched into with as much gravity as that in which J. R. R. Tolkien did for his amazing works? The Silmarillion alone is an extensive narrative that looked into the inner workings of Eä and would be necessary to read through to create any film that’s based in THAT universe for it to be legitimate at all.

As it has been mentioned in Variety’s article “16 Things You Didn’t Know About the Making of ‘Lord of the Rings’” (http://variety.com/…/lord-of-the-rings-making-of-backstory…/), “A production team of over 2,400 and 26,000 extras worked on the films for five years.” 64 miniature sets were created, with “some so detailed that the larger ones were known as “bigatures”.

Even Peter Jackson, the director of both film trilogies based on J. R. R. Tolkien’s works, said as much behind the work required to recreate the literature; “I had to create the most believable world I could. The decision was to make it feel very historical, with the levels of detail creating the illusion that the viewers were immersing themselves in a real world”. Their budget was ginormous, reaching $281 million (Source: https://variety.com/…/hobbit-trilogy-has-cost-561-million-…/).

Since the Lord of the Rings Trilogy is a universe based on Norse and general Germanic mythology, as well as Celtic, Slavic, Persian, Greek, and Finnish mythology, it’s justifiable that the actors they used for the original trilogy (and the succeeding cinematic trilogy created that was based on the prequel “The Hobbit”) were all of Caucasian descent; it just made sense.

Remaking it in the Philippines would be a great insult to J. R. R. Tolkien’s memory, his son Christopher Tolkien’s efforts in editing most of his father’s posthumously published work, and to the rest of the Tolkien fandom, especially considering the current production quality of Filipino films (which isn’t bad, but it would be a great let-down for the massive diehard fans of Middle Earth if it weren’t up to the international standards of Peter Jackson’s “Lord of the Rings” and “The Hobbit”; it still needs a lot more work).

The Philippines has a rich oral and literary narrative if people were to just dig it up and research about them (or even just consult the experts who’ve been studying the subject for so many years who have many great ideas themselves), and it’s just there wasting away instead of having more people attempt to preserve it by putting it on a medium that’s most accessible for the general populace. Why look outward, when we have so many stories we can tell right here in our own country? Maybe do something similar to what J. R. R. Tolkien did to create his extremely rich world and do research into the many different parts of the Philippines (actual REAL linguistic and regional-cultural research, and not just a quick surface allusion) to create something even more original than LOTR.

The Philippines has a great talent pool for this sort of thing that’s just being side-stepped in mainstream media for whatever can bring in the big bucks. We have the capacity to create something as great as Lord of the Rings and even Game of Thrones, if only the right talents were tapped and if sacrifices were made to create the art Filipinos deserve.

For what are proper films and TV shows, but art that reflects a society’s culture.

Please, let’s not have our media be more of a laughing stock than it already is.

Just Thoughts Triggered From A Video

Thoughts during/after watching this video on YouTube:
It would be wonderful if most depictions of masculinity in films and television shows were to change. The prevalent trends today limit male heroes with roles where they either are “autonomous, brazen, and physically strong” or are “witty, boisterous, and charismatic”. When it comes to vulnerability? They’re supposed to hide it.
“We learn to easily forgive aggression and arrogance in men but to take exception at presentations of humility or sensitivity. We’re accustomed to seeing men who are quick to violence and slow to diplomacy.”
Says quite a lot about the values being taught to men through the media really…
Being sincere, nurturing, emotional, and sensitive, where “sensitivity is framed as a strength rather than a weakness”. That’s what Newt shows. And it is pretty refreshing to see a main male character depicted this way.
Contrary to popular belief, vulnerability is not “weak”. Rather, it is a strength to even show vulnerability as it takes a whole lot of courage just to BE vulnerable.
Anyhow, long story short. I am truly thankful and blessed for the sensitive men in my life. Also, media kinda sucks when it represents the genders.

Does Anger Ever Solve War?

Talking talking talking
Never listening
Talking over each other
Talking under each other
But never, ever listening


Talking talking talking
Always talking
Talking over one another
Competing to be heard
But never, ever listening

Incessant noise…

Hypothesising mistakes
Revelling in complaints
Drowned in hatred and ill-will

Hypocrisy, Pride
Fighting for respect, but not respecting
Despising the entitled, yet being entitled
No better than a keyboard warrior

Just Toxic

Slow down, reflect
Let go of emotions


Does anger ever solve war?

Just Thoughts…

Does everything I do have to have some sort of academic purpose just because I’m a student?

That question is something that has entered my mind thrice now; first was on Friday (Chinese New Year holiday when we went to Carcar to pick up our shoe orders), second was yesterday (Saturday; had a makeup class), and third was today (Sunday; read a book, wrote a little, went to church, went home, worked out, then read/wrote).

On each occasion, I was involved with something I was just doing as a past-time. Hobby, if you will. There really was no relation between what I was doing with academics. I just felt like working on those hobbies at those times.

I know it seems odd that I enjoy some of the things I do on my own time without anything grade-related motivating me to do it, but it’s true. I just feel like working on my in-progress-hard-af-to-focus-on manuscript, taking random photos with my DSLR, reading a book that’s not part of a class’s must-read list, blogging about nothing, and working out whenever I want, wherever I like.

I guess what I’m trying to get at is that what I do at times has nothing to do with my academic career and this sort of thing should be more of a norm (maybe it’s just here) that people let people be for what they want to do without unnecessary commentary and/or questions.

Closing message: Your life now (as a college student) should be more than just your academic struggles. Sure, it can get tough at times, but don’t get so hung up on it that it becomes an obsession/only thing on your mind. Put in some of the things you enjoy doing into your life as well and come out of college having not only good/semi-okay grades, but actual hobby-like-things you can continue past college.

Also, grades aren’t everything.